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what's "i'll tell you later"?

later never came.

expected, you're still avoiding it. i guess i should just give up. i will never get an answer from you if you don't wanna give me one. if you don't wanna say it, i will just pretend you did.
i don't know how long more you wanna drag.. but i am not gonna let this put me down.

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mmm oh anyway i do miss some of the people whom i no longer contact. and i am very tempted to contact them too. lol
i will catch up with you peeps once i am done with this damn A's. LOL







day 4, and it's still hurting quite badly.


went out shopping with gab and des. thought maybe i will feel better after spending money on myself. but the effect was quite temporary D:
nonetheless i enjoyed myself with them. thanks girls (=


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why did we visit so many places before? sister mentioned Kuishin-Bo today. it reminded me of you. it reminded me that very day we went to queue and wanted to settle dinner there. do you remember? i do..

chatted with weiquan on msn ytd night. he left for tekong today and he mentioned russell peters.
remember how you used to imitate him? do you? i do..
i still remember how we watched it together on your white laptop.
and all the shows we watched together. 1 Litre of Tears.

and the many many movies we watched. do you remember what was our first movie? i do.. Red Cliff 2. we watched it at Plaza Sing. you were wearing your red Adidas jacket.

i still have all your smses in my phone. should i delete them off? it's pointless to keep them anyway. its not like reading them will change anything.



everywhere. everything. every single place. even songs. it reminds me of you.
how am i suppose to forget you? how am i suppose to get on with life like this?
i really don't know. but i'm trying my best.
with all the support from my friends and family, i guess i should really move on with life.

YOU CAN DO IT, NATALIE.



somebody kick all these thoughts out of my head now and tuck me to bed, please?







i'm spending our 4th month anniversary at home now. how about you?

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i've never felt so disappointed with someone before.







please don't let go.. i will do anything and everything for us. for things to work out.
please give us a chance, please?..

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i don't know what exactly made you say all those words, i don't know what have i done to make you do this to me. i don't know what made you make such a decision at this point of time, so sudden.

did you really mean those words you said to me, those you wrote on the letters and small notes you gave me, those you text me..

everything i do, everywhere i went, everything seems to remind me of you.
the places we went to eat, the things we laughed and joked about, the moments we shared. have you forgotten everything? have you..? if no, how can you bear to let go everything just like that..

it's really torturing.. really.

the things we plan to do, the places we plan to go, aren't we gonna accomplish them together?
me and you?
what happen to all the promises we made...


i still remember very vividly the very day we got together. it's still fresh in my mind, like it was just yesterday we got together. you are the first person i put in so much effort and time in. i really cant bear to let this go..


i guess whatever i say now won't make much of a difference. you probably won't see this in your whole entire life. bet you don't even know that this blog existed.
i feel really sorry for myself. why am i so in love with you? why did you make me fall in love with you..

i really need you by my side now...
really..



someone slap natalie wong please. i need to wake up from this dream. i need to face the reality.
WAKE UP NATALIE.
wake up.







since i am tagged with the ten things tag thing, and i feel i should blog while i got the time to do so now if not i won't have time when school reopens, i shall BLOG.
my 2nd post of 2008. here i go!

1. Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves.
2. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their ten things and post these rules.
3. At the end of your blog, you need to choose ten people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they're tagged, and to read yours.


1. she just bought this new shade of nail colour 'czar' today and she finds it sexaay!

2. she is chatting with 3 people in msn.

3. she's in love with Utaban videos and some Morning Musume videos because they tend to do very silly stuff which makes her laugh.

4. she can't wait to go Malaysia with her family! (and Mr Brent but she regards him as her family alr [: )

5. she loves kboxing/party world-ing with her friends!

6. she wants to work, anyone got temp jobs fer her? [:

7. she loves to camwhore, many people knows this right? lol. who wanna join me? :D

8. she wants to learn many many many things but there is just so little time. she hopes that someone can open a time bank fer her to borrow time. low interest rates please.

9. she loves reminiscing.

10. lastly, she is happy to see her friends happy [:

i don't have much people to tag, those who update their blogs frequently have alr been tagged. so, i shall reduce to just five [:
five people i want to tag:

1. emily darling
2. ah fu
3. andy
4. shaun
5. keith (you got blog right? WHEN ARE U SHOWING ME D: anyway if u see this just do first, and show me when u feel like it [: )








WHOOOO.

june 22, 2007. how long ago was that?
almost a year since i last blogged. and i still see 2006 posts on my blog =O
and now i am starting again, dunno if i will continue after this post.
sort of lost touch of how to blog. cos it feels weird typing to the computer and no replies, like i am typing to myself.

but nvm, i got so much to rant. was trying to find a way to get this off my chest and suddenly realised 'HEY i still got a blog. not bad, i shall not abandon it anymore' thats why i am here typing to myself.
okay let me start.


accompanied my sis to 2 job interviews today. had no intention of working either of the post she applied fer, but since i am going with her i might as well go give it a try. so i went.

first one, located near Dhoby Ghaut, somewhere in some small corner of this small centre, has nth much inside. so we walked and found the company. was a small rather pleasant looking company from OUTSIDE. yes from outside only. LOL
we stood outside and waited fer someone to open the door fer us cos we thought we have to wait fer someone to attend to us. but no, after standing five minutes outside we realized we can actually PUSH the door open. hahaha. so, we went in!

WOAH. no one. the front desk was empty, no one there, the lights were not even on D:
so i told my sis 'are u sure the company is still alive?'
yes it is. went to peep around here and there, surprisingly there's still ONE man sitting in his small cosy office talking on the phone.

one person managing the whole company? WAH. hahaha. that guy must be rather capable eh :I

there was many boxes stacked up in this corner of the company, and only one side of the company has lights on, the rest is total darkness. a little freaky when we first stepped in, but lucky there was that one man.

sat fer awhile and he came to pass us two application forms so we started filling it up. just then another colleague came in. (finally there's two people working!)
HIS SECRETARY. i think. cos i saw her making coffee fer him.

blahblahblah, waited fer our turn fer interview and finally went in.

'so you two are sisters?'

was the first qns. we smiled politely and nodded. the only difference in both our application forms are our names, and our schools. and maybe one of my sis's job which she took up and i din. the rest, the same. address.. house number.. job experience.. same.
OH but our expected salary is different though. cos my sis felt she should earn more cos she older, which is true la. i'm still a xmm.

he browse through our application forms, asked standard qns and started describing the job scope to us.
we listened attentively [:

the whole of the interview he din mentioned anything about his product, neither did he tell us wad exactly is our pay, wad we gonna do, and how we gonna sell the products. but nvm, he said they will have training fer us and at the end of it, the pay will be REVEALED to us. <--- D: he continued talking about how important it its to convince customers NOT through sweet talking but rather SHARING information about the product with them. i agree with him, but its not so easy to just share and people auto buy. anyway, told me training will be tmr and so we left. blahblahblah, went to 2nd interview and it was MLM kind of job. not that i detest it so much but its really not my kind of job, i am not suited to do MLM. really. so me and sis siansian and left the 2nd company, more of a factory actually cos its a company in a factory. D: D: D: went home. felt rather satisfied la, at least found one job which i thought can earn some cash in the hols and gain exp so that next time my resume will be a little NICER :x but to my horror, the job is also MLM! =O
!!!

chatted with hs about my job and he told me his friend did it before, the same company, the same place!
!!!
upon knowing its MLM i immediately told myself i won't go fer the training tmr :I
his friend advised i can actually go fer the first session, can learn abit.
BUT, still... i.. AHHHHHHH.

that man never mentioned anything about MLM at all during the interview, and made it sound like they will groom us to really lead a group of WOW-POTENTIAL-HIGH-PERFORMANCE team. when i don't see how they are gonna do that with only two people working in the company D:
maybe if we work we will be in that WOW-POTENTIAL-HIGH-PERFORMANCE team and he will be leading us. while we slog ):

guess i will just have to start flipping the newspaper again.
anyone who reads this, has any temp jobs to intro (no MLM please) can kindly contact me [:

its quite boring to stay home everyday staring at your computer and doing nth constructive when people out there are gaining cash every hour. its also very sad to go out without money and while people enjoy good food while i eat wad? GRASS. its free and healthy but still, i prefer something tastier and unhealthy. LOL
so please do help!

oh man i still feel crappy after blogging ):
shall go watch some Utaban videos, their really good at cheering me up! [:

ending my 109th post here!

sometimes i wonder..

if things could change fer the better.

everytime i try, it din seem to work.

if only you can understand me a little more.

it din use to be like that, i dunno why things changed.

isit you, or isit me?

i don't know.

it`s obvious

xxx

x

anyway, i found out that being a "messenger" is horrible. you get malign and accused fer things u obviously din do.

my sister recently got accused of being rude, by a customer call Ms Erh.

Ms Erh apparently wrote her name as Ern on the application form for a membership card.

and duh, the membership card manufacturer printed her name is Ern, which upset her terribly.

so, this Ms ERH called the office to question.

my sis picked up the phone.

Ms ERH ranted on and on on how inefficient the company is.

being a sweetie, my sis offered to check the application form fer her.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v486/eilatan_gnow/stupid2Bidiot2.jpg [click the link to see, currently can`t post pic cos i am blogging through hotmail. blogger gone bonkers =o]

guys, its obviously ERN not ERH. i think Ms ERH doesnt know her ABCs well enuf.

so, in order to convince Ms Erh, my sis offered to fax the apllication form to her.

she rejected, complained and threatened to call the boss.

she called in the end.

my sis got scolded.

and they say customer is always right.

pui ah, always right. den customer touch here touch there also always right? -.-

my senior recently came back to school to sell tix fer a performance for her school.

she approached the teacher-in-charge of our school to help collect money from those who are interested.

so in order to make things simpler, she gave both of them each other`s number.

and somehow due to some miscommunications, she was accused of talking bad about the teacher.

COMMUNICATION

some may think that as long as u pass the message word by word, nth will go wrong.

WRONG.

i got called a parrot fer doing that, not in a joking manner somemore. zzz

did i do anything wrong?

YES. i should not have even agree to convey the message in the first place.

somehow cant seem to blog at home.
i am not in school using the school`s com to blog.
at home, the "new post" page just wun load.
i press the page.
after dinner, go back check
still not loaded
....
zzz


and and and the moood of blogging all disappear when i see the page not able to load.
but since now i can, i shall squeeze my brain to think of something to blog about.

this morning, someone asked me to blog about marriage.
so i was asking myself
" when do i wanna get married? "

seriously, i have no idea. dun even know wad jc or poly i wanna go, how to know when marry?
八字都还没有一丿
hahahaha.
just attended a wedding last sun.
the couple looks sweeet tgt. but time seem to past so fast.
use to play around with the grooom a few years ago, and now he is getting married alr.
sighhh.

oh shit. lesson ended :[







WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !

my first post of 2007, after so many days, lol
since its the first post. it shall be a really loooong one. nth to write. den CRAP more! [:

was having lunch just now. and suddely thought of smth to crap abt, my WEIRDNESS.
i am sure all of u have weird habits.
and when i list out some later, some if u will go " yah! yah ! i also do that! haha! " and start laughing to yourself. retarded lah u all. hahaha.

hmmmmm
i shall start now. (:

1. i like to play (online) games with my mouth wide open. ( i din realise that until my sis told me >.< )

2. before i climb on my comfy bed, i will make sure the bed is at the edge of the room, meaning i will ensure that it "sticks" to the wall before i feel "safe" to slp, no gaps allowed in between. ( my bed is towards the edge of the room)

3. i will DEFINITELY bathe before i slp, definitely. ( some of u may know this, this habit, got it from my mama. )

4. before or after a nap, i will brush my teeth. ( i hate it when i slp or wake up with stinky breath. yucks ! )

5. i will finish every grain of rice. ( some of u are like that too ! haha. not cos i dun wan my future husband to have orange-skined face, but i feel uneasy seeing food remains. LOL )

6. i will wash my hair first when i bathe, den my body, and back to my hair again. so i wash hair twice.

7. i like to lower the volume of my tv to zero before switching it off. ( cos sometimes when my parents dun allow me watch, and when they are in their rooms, i can watch in mute mode. LOL )

8. i dun eat pork, beef, mutton and duck meat. ( some of u know this too. haha [: )

9. the first thing i do in the morning is to make my hair neat. ( cos i cant stand looking into the mirror with my messy hair. i dun wan to have a fright early in the morning. )

10. i USED to surround myself with all my pillows and bolsters before i slp. ( mitsuki does that too! :D this is to feel safe and secure. but now my pillows and bolster reduced to only three :< not enuf to cover my gigantic body. )

WOW, @_@

i realise i am INDEED a very weird person. hahaha.
and there are still some i have list down. cos i cant rmb =S

anyway, going S.H.E concert later. nv pay any money fer the tix :D
NOT EVEN A SINGLE CENT !
HAHA YES I WAN MAKE ALL OF U ALL JEALOUS xD

ha kiddin lah. will upload pics from the concert if possible. provided this shortie here can be lucky enough to capture some nice pics (:

tata ppl ! off to save my computer. gonna reinstall xp. see if it works. good luck to me ! (:
(yes i am usin papa`s lappy )







fer some some some unknown reasons again, i can seem to blog !
haha. been wanting to blog since donkey years ago but this damn blogger just wun work.
somehow lady luck is here beside me so i can blog now ( lady luck is damn pretty =o)

was trying to find some user and pw of a game which i have gotten frm my fren, but i forgot wad isit. so i went to search thru the chat logs.

hmmmmm still couldn't find. but thats not the main point.
went to read some of the chat logs.
felt so...
so...
i cant describe it lah. maybe a mixture of sad and pity. i dunno oso. ha.
and i just started thinkin.
thinking thinking thinking...
den i feel sad.
>:

hahaa. partly cos i miss those days when i use to chat alot, and i mean really alot, those kind til the archives can be as much as 6 archives those kind.
but now, dun tink it will happen anymore.
well, life`s like that lah. i cant help it.

arghhhh i dun wan to continue le >:







fer some reasons which i dunno, i can`t seem to blog on my computer. so here i am using my papa`s lappy to blog.

will be a short one, cos can`t use fer long. hmmmmm
leaving fer thailand in 3 days time
gonna miss everyone ! :D
since i gonna miss everyone, everyone shall miss me too (=

going til the 4th, so if there`s anything urgent that needs to be informed to me, email me.
i will try to use any computers i can there. hahaa. but i dun tink its possible tho =/

hmmmmm. i`ll stop here. need to go out sakae with mitsuki already. heh

byebye (:







oh, oh, oh, i found my wallet already (:

forgot to mention patrick. PATRICK. ok patrick i mentioned already. lol







oh man, i lost my wallet :<

all the things inside,

GONE !!!

i have twelve bucks in it, gone nvm. i can earn back.
i have one panadol in it, cos i keep it inside in case i got fever or smth. hahaha. that one gone, nvm at all
i have library card in it, i dun really use it, juz pray hard ppl wun take it to borrow books and dun return on time -.-
i have cards, but its some unimpt cards.
i have movie tix, all the movies i have watched, my collection, gone :<
MOST IMPTLY, my NEOPRINTS inside ! ohmytian, everything can be gone but not those !

all my pass memories, all the money i invested in it, gone :'<

gone gone gone

ahhh, the more i think, the more depressed i get
i need to get a new wallet, and think of things to put inside, again.
it will be so empty, not like before.
last time i am still complaining my wallet not big enough
now ley, big oso no use
other den ezlink card, money and coins, wad else to put in lo -.-
i miss u man wallet, come back to me :<


haiyah, i dun wan write on le lah .

oh wait, patrick wans me to mention him. i mention u le ah patrick, nice of me right. hahaa







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